In a blink of an eye

I remember being 4 and we were on a family trip in Langkawi. I was walking hand in hand with daddy in the kiddy pool when I suddenly tripped and fell. Daddy was surprised I got up laughing instead of crying. I was also enrolled in kindergarten and little did I know, my dance partner turned out to be a friend I got to know many years later.

It was when I was 6 that I decided I wanted to be a motorcycle racer. I cycle down the steep slope behind my house at top speed and swerve the corner. I ended up flat on the ground, scars all over my limbs and had a hard time breathing.

My friends reminded me that I used to be really scary in primary school. At 11, I was known as the smacker. I gave people’s back high fives if they ever pissed me off. I also opted for the famous Kamus Dewan as my weapon.

Then came every 12 year old’s nightmare, UPSR. The girls and boys in my primary school went separate ways.

High school was full with ups and downs. I was one of those nerds that participated in everything. I was 16 when I was elected as the Head of Discipline, and yes I was as shocked as you too. However, I had the least names in my 555 notebook.

At the age of 17, everyone was working their asses off for SPM. It doesn’t help when you are in a very competitive school and getting straight A’s was kind of obligated. SPM went smoothly and everything went as plan.

Despite meeting amazing people when I was 18, it was one of the lower points in my life. I never felt like such a failure. I soon got over it and it was off I go to the land of the free and the bold. For the first time ever, I was in a place so foreign. For the first time ever, I found that it was hard to make friends. For the first time ever, I felt so alone.

I drove on the other side of the road when I was 20. That did not turn out too well. It was also that year where I visited the place where dreams come true. I finally went to Disneyland!

I was 21 when you happened. I went to Europe and watched my first ever live football match, a Manchester United match. Those 10 days were the best time of my life.

I am 22. I have achieved and lost, laughed and cried. I wouldn’t trade what I have been through with anything else in the world. It might not be perfect but it was full with love, dreams and hope. Now I just need to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

that's how legends are made, at least that's what they say

it is okay to fall once in a while, you just have to remember to pick yourself up again. dwelling in it would only hurt yourself and the people you love.

can you lay your life down, so a stranger can live?
can you take what you need, but take less than you give?
could you close every day, without the glory and fame?
could you hold your head high, when no one knows your name?
that's how legends are made, at least that's what they say.

we say goodbye, but never let go.
we live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.
gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

can you lose everything, you ever had planned?
can you sit down again, and play another hand?
could you risk everything, for the chance of being alone?
under pressure find the grace, or would you come undone?
that's how legends are made, at least that's what they say.

21,081,600 s

the tale of the unfortunate easter egg...

march 11, 2008 marks the death of a chocolate easter egg.

the box that failed to protect the poor little egg
the big slit across the box
*crushed* poor egg didn't even make it to easter...
i guess they thought the egg was used for smuggling drugs

thank god the mini eggs that survived!

the internet is for porn

avenue q was simply amazing. it full of wit and parody, definitely the funniest musical ever. it is like sesame street except for adults. it depicts the in between college and workforce phase a lot of people go through and a typical lifestyle of the people in queens...the musical has everything, from racism to internet being the platform for porn (grab your dick and double click *wink* ). they are songs and stories you could actually relate to. how everyone is a teeny bit racist but still deems that it is immoral and wrong, how some people spend their whole life looking for their purpose or some spend it living in a lie, but it is all "for now".

everyone is a little bit unsatisfied,
everyone goes around a little empty inside
take a breath, look around, swallow your pride,
for now...
nothing lasts, life goes on, full of surprises
you'll be face with problems, all shape and sizes
you're going to have to make a few compromises
for now...
but only for now....

guess who will be looping the soundtrack all though springbreak!

even the best fall down some time....

guilty as charged

i feel personally liable for the her current state. people come and go, it is bound to happen someday, even without my existent but who knows, it might take another twist. why does someone's happiness always have to be at the cost of someone else's grief.....

the burden is getting heavier, i should learn to let go

they say...

everything works out for the best. i say that those words are just lies to make you feel better.

failure :: disappointment :: frustration :: lost :: dissatisfaction :: hurt :: ache

when will i get to feel all triumphant again...



i need to turn off the waterworks...